Sunday, October 18, 2009

Self-Confidence

As I was preening in the mirror last night, getting ready to go to a church social, I mused out loud to Paul. "You know, I really think I look pretty good for being 9 months pregnant." (I was having a good hair day.)
He replies, "Yeah!?" (in the "and you're just now realizing this?" tone - major brownie points to him.)
How is it that now my pregnancy is almost over, I finally have adjusted to my roundness. I feel confident and sexy. I don't feel awkward most days (except when I try to roll over in bed). Even day-to-day stuff I still am able to do pretty easily. And I can still carry Nathan - even though I threatened him starting about 6 months ago that "Mommy can't carry you any more." (I carried him through the grocery store Monday, because he fell asleep in the car and didn't wake up when we got there like I'd anticipated.)
When people ask me how I feel, though, I most often answer, "Fat." It's just an easy answer, and makes them laugh. But I don't really feel that fat. I actually feel less fat then I did when I was six months along, somehow.
Anyhow. It just kind of figures that when I have a week left of being pregnant, all the sudden I feel good about myself. Maybe this is just a boost I'll need to get me through the "what happened to my body??!?" I'm going to go through as soon as I don't have a baby in my belly. :)

4 comments:

The Other Rachel said...

You do look great. :)

Tiffany said...

You look awesome Rachel!!! Can't wait to for you to be blogging about your new lil boy or girl.

Joseph and Amber said...

I really appreciate you sharing this. I've totally felt awkward and "bulky". It helps to know that I'm not the only one who struggles with the round-factor. You have given me courage! Thanks!

Joseph and Amber said...

And for the record, you do look fabulous. :)